Realization

Isn't it funny how somethings in life you have to "live and learn". I learned something about myself in the past week. I can not be a working mother.

I worked alot this week up at the kids' school helping out with the book fair. I think it's important to volunteer and I really do enjoy it. But it took it's toll on me, the kids, and our house, with me bieng gone and busy so much.

Early last year, about April, I went back to work. It was supposed to be just part time, but quickly evolved into full time. I loved being a legal assistant. Someday, I hope to be a lawyer, so this was perfect for me. I started full time in August and worked until December. Rachel, my last baby, went off to school in August. I was already working at the time so I didn't get the full understanding of being a stay at home mom with no kids at home during the day.

When I decided to quit in December and try just being a stay at home mom I was able to recognize what I had been missing out on. I love my kids, but I am one of those mom's that enjoys my breaks from them. With working full time and then going directly from work to get them it did not give me the "me time" I needed to gather myself for the evening ahead of tattle tailing, driving kids to soccer, making dinner, crying, fighting, entertaining, homework, teeth brushing, good night hugs, bedtime etc.

Since the move into this new house happened almost at the same time as my job change, my life has been changed for the better. I absolutely love being a stay at home mom now. That is a huge blessing from where I was at three months, six months, or even a year ago. I make myself a chore chart each day of things I want to accomplish on the house. I have time to go to lunch with friends, I can sit and read a book all day if I want, I am able to stay home and love on my sick kids when needed, I can even take a nap if I want to! My houses overall cleanliness, attitude, love, and happiness has increased in our home. Guess the saying is true..If momma aint happy aint nobody happy" lol.

I thank God for the change in me, my attitude, and I am so grateful He allows us to be able to have one parent be a stay at home parent.